Saturday, July 6, 2013

Christa Patterson

So yea, if you didn't know my Gran died this past Wednesday in a an accident. It's almost funny how that is what was so amazingly shocking. At 76 years old you expect someone to pass because of age and health.  You expect the slow decay and to have some time to adjust to the idea (at least in theory, it will still always be a shock)
And I can see how some might struggle with this, but maybe it is better this way? I know my Gran and she would have hated to fade away slowly, losing herself. Bit by bit, day by day until she was a shell of who she once was. Barley recognizable as even a person. That was the hardest thing about my Great Grandmothers death. The was almost nothing left of Christine Helwig, at least that I could see. Some told me she would remember Ed (what a great love that must have been) and other small things from years far past gone. And I know that Gran would have hated that, and I don't think she would have wanted any of us to experience that for her, I don't think she would have wanted us to remember her that way, so is this better?
It's been an inspiration of thought about grieving and sadness when a loved one dies. Funny to think but while I understand the mourning of the dead it seems almost silly. Should we not celebrate the life she lived?  We cry for ourselves but maybe we should laugh for her. I think maybe she would like that (but then I could be wrong)

So pretty much, so many confusing feelings. So many questions that will never be answered, but isn't that always what happens when someone you know dies.


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